In the past few days I have done a ton of thinking about my involvement with this project, and the operation as a whole. I feel like I provide a very unique quality of service to my regular visitors but I am torn on many levels of seemingly unavoidable life obstacles in front of me. God is making huge moves in my personal life to better serve my family of 5 in these difficult times. Some of those are positive things and some of them is proving very difficult to accept.

I love doing this work.

I love serving my Country.

I can only give credit to God for the inspiration to create this site.

He fights my battles. I try to help Him how I can, as best I can with the gifts He has given me.

I have a few things ahead that seem required to continue providing for my family in the long term to protect the life that my wife and I have struggled hard to build for our family. I have prayed on it and will continue to over the next few days and weeks. If you could please include us in yours as well.

For the last decade I have worked at a union factory job building trucks. I make pretty good money, 40+ hours a week. The kind of money college graduates would expect to make but without the loans. I never enjoyed the work though. It's robotic, repetitive and boring. There is also the corrupt union that found a way to steal millions of dollars a year from its members, stab them in the back repeatedly in regards contract negotiations and representation and have had corporate fraternization and bribes exposed.

However, It was a great place to be able do the work I have done here and on social media in the past. While co-workers listened to what seemed like the same 30 songs day after day, I watched or listened to 8-10 hours of news or educational materials, always learning. Before my accident I even had enough extra time on the assembly line to post notables between truck builds.

Past service injuries and the wear and tear on my body has taken its toll. I have 3 different pill bottles at the ready to manage symptoms and chronic pain at all times. In addition I tore a muscle in my rotator cuff last year at work it has healed well but a recent nerve conduction study confirmed abnormalities with intense numbness in the forearm and hand when under consistent load. It will likely require another surgery before the end of this year. The weeks spent in a sling and months of physical therapy also irritated an old c-spine injury from my time in the service.

I have become concerned about my ability to continue the physical labor type work I have done my whole life. My resume is military and factory laborer. I would be attempting to move from a physical job in which I make good money to starting over in a different career field with no relevant experience. Most alternatives I would qualify for are a nearly 40% salary decrease. I have contacted the VA's Vocational Rehab program to see if I qualified for educational benefits and I do.

When the Q operation started I was in my sophomore year attempting to complete a degree online. I recognized the impact and scale of this operation in early 2018 and knew I needed to be a part of it, so I withdrew and postponed that pursuit. Technically I was on track to have completed that education in 2020 but this project and the community recognition of it has been an honor of a lifetime.

In the last 4 years I have applied to the FBI, contacted Army and special forces recruiters. I have attempted to apply for a School Resource Officer Position with our local Sheriff's Dept. Physically unable to preform some, and unqualified on paper to preform others.

The VA has offered to cover the remainder of my courses to graduate from a Bachelors of Business for Forensic Accounting. I have roughly 2.5 years remaining to complete that degree and regardless of my ability to share news here or continue to put the puzzle pieces together I am still coming after those who would seek to weigh the scales in their favor, at the expense of others.